Closed casket dream

Dear diary, tonight will be our last
My hands are itching for razors
My angel, this knife shall carve thee wings
Consumed by sickness, i ache to see your blood
The hour approaches when i shall lay a nest inside of you

Sliced open i lay waste to my desires
Sweet entrails are scooped onto the tile

And in my dreams i hold your head beneath the waves
After you've died, i kiss the nape of your porcelain neck
You enter me in death's perpetual embrace
Skin tightens in the throes of lust

And in my dreams i cut your mouth from ear to ear
Dissecting your angelic body in the quiet of your room
How splendidly i carve into your tender heart
Shuddering between the sheets

For weeks i've watched you, perched above your sleeping form
As i caress your perfection
My angel, i'll tear your insides out
My mind is flooding, the marrow of your bones
I cannot subside 'til i have suckled every inch of you

Your features now glazed in your own blood
My fingers find home amongst your guts

And in my dreams i hold your head beneath the waves
After you've died, i kiss the nape of your porcelain neck
You enter me in death's perpetual embrace
Skin tightens in the throes of lust

And in my dreams i cut your mouth from ear to ear
Dissecting your angelic body in the quiet of your room
How splendidly i carve into your tender heart
Shuddering between the sheets

Whisper your name as you awaken your throat gasps, your skin recoils
We shall be intertwined, entangled in our love
Murder beckons as time stops with your voice

"i'll love you forever" -- and forever it shall be
The knives begin singing, they're weeping for your flesh

The pinnacle of obsession is clawing at the fibers of my mind
The rampant state of elation is heightened by the paleness of your cries
With a promise of absolution, my thoughts are tangled in my creations
With a promise of unequaled pleasure, reason is twisting
The knives are crooning for this perfect end

For weeks i've watched you, perched above your sleeping form
As i caress your perfection
My angel, i'll tear your insides out
My mind is flooding, the marrow of your bones
I cannot subside 'til i have suckled every inch of you

I feel the fibers stretch and tear
Unbridled climax is achieved
I've waited so long for this moment
The euphoric act of suicide

Sunday Gray

Although it's Sunday noon, I still find it weird to be windy and gray outside. I actually enjoy seeing this type of wheather. But I can't enjoy it 100 percent because she is not with me right now, how I miss her so much. I think she is upset at me for something I wish not to go into detail but right now I shall stay strong just to show her I am strong where I stand and I will keep fighting for what i believe. I feel psychotic XD anyone who reads this will be like "What is he talking about?" Well to answer that question, I like writing my mind out, I use it to calm myself down, I write down random because it's the perfect way to start feeling better, any comments on this??

The leaf of life

It seems like the more time I don't see you, my soul fades

It seems the more time you are not present here my heart slows down to the point of stroke

It seems whenever I hear my name, I expect it to be you calling me, and tun around crying, its not you

It seems everytime i Want to make something go well, you pop into my head

It seems life has no point when you are not here with me

It seems I have contradicted myself because you are not here, but i am still here

It seems my words are becoming more and more of a confusing puzzle that only you can read backwards

It seems i am still here, alive because the last leaf on the tree, has not fallen, something is holding it

It seems the moon is full, never seems to change, leaving me mentally deranged

It seems my thoughts are unclear and I shall stop puzzling you and scaring you

It seems I will answer your question in the next line, what is my point?

It does not seems you are important at all to me because you are all over this poem,

YOU ARE EVERYTHING THERE IS IN ME TO LIVE, YOU ARE THE ONE, WHO KEEPS THAT LEAF IN THE TREE FROM FALLING AND PREVENTING THAT TREE FROM LOOKING LIFELESS

AND SO YOU SEE? A TREE IS SO EASY TO JUDGE BY ALL OF ITS LEAFS MISSING, EXCEPT ONE, TELLING THEMSELVES, THAT TREE HAS SOMETHING THAT IS KEEPING IT FROM DYING,ALAS A LEAF CAN BE A SOURCE FOR BEAUTY IN THE TREE, THE TRUNK IS THE TREE'S STRENGTH, JUDGE THAT AND YOU ALREADY FELL INTO THE HANDS OF GOD, FOR ONE LEAF, IS ALL WE NEED, TO LIVE...........

MELISSA HERNANDEZ, TE AMO....

Un dia en la ventana

Las noches son frias sin ti

cuando miro hacia mi lado, la cama se siente demasiado grande para mi

Donde estara mi otra mitad

siempre me duermo dandole un beso, para ke duerma con un sueño dulce

Fijandome por la ventana

Busco una estrella para pedirle por su felicidad entera

Melissa Hernandez

Solamente se merece lo mejor de la vida

Es como un angel

Que me atrapo cuando mis alas estaban rotas

A un poso profundo

Yo estaba callendo

Pero luego llego sus dulces ojos que iluminaron mi alma,

Su inmenso amor,

Me dio fuerza como ni un hombre tiene

Su hermosa sonrisa

ah logrado tenerme feliz en mi dias,

Melissa Hernandez,

Ah logrado salvarme,

No del mundo ni de nadie,

Pero de mi mismo

Po eso hoy

Melissa, te bajaria todas las estrellas del cielo,

En tu cuarto

tendrias luz hasta para toda una cuidad,

pero no las compartas, porke son tuyas

Melissa Hernandez,

hoy te kiero decir desde lo mas profundo de mi corazon

Melissa Hernandez

Daria mi vida por ti.......

Un dia en la ventana

Las noches son frias sin ti

cuando miro hacia mi lado, la cama se siente demasiado grande para mi

Donde estara mi otra mitad

siempre me duermo dandole un beso, para ke duerma con un sueño dulce

Fijandome por la ventana

Busco una estrella para pedirle por su felicidad entera

Melissa Hernandez

Solamente se merece lo mejor de la vida

Es como un angel

Que me atrapo cuando mis alas estaban rotas

A un poso profundo

Yo estaba callendo

Pero luego llego sus dulces ojos que iluminaron mi alma,

Su inmenso amor,

Me dio fuerza como ni un hombre tiene

Su hermosa sonrisa

ah logrado tenerme feliz en mi dias,

Melissa Hernandez,

Ah logrado salvarme,

No del mundo ni de nadie,

Pero de mi mismo

Po eso hoy

Melissa, te bajaria todas las estrellas del cielo,

En tu cuarto

tendrias luz hasta para toda una cuidad,

pero no las compartas, porke son tuyas

Melissa Hernandez,

hoy te kiero decir desde lo mas profundo de mi corazon

Melissa Hernandez

Daria mi vida por ti.......